I have so many options...

So many things that I want to do, and theoretically, such little time to do them.
There are so many internships I want to participate in.
So many study abroad programs I want to participate in.
London, Spain, Italy...I wouldn't know where to go. Spend a semester in a country, or spend a summer in a country? Honestly, I'd prefer a semester. An entire semester in another country? How amazing would that be. Maybe next spring...I'll go to London. They do speak English there. But Spain would be amazing, to be able to learn how to speak Spanish. But then Italy...I'll get to hang out with my Simo! And Riccardo and maybe get to meet his other friends. That would be a lot of fun. I could learn italian in that case, which would be an absolute blast. But the chances of me actually graduating on time in that case would be pretty slim. But at the same time, why does it matter? I should stay in school for as long as I possibly can shouldn't I? Going out and finding a job is not really my forte.
I'm watching Post Grad...that's why I'm having all of these issues with my future. I want to be able to enjoy being a kid as much as possible, before I really have to grow up and be an adult. Which is an extremely terrifying concept if you think about it.
I just got an apartment, and in retrospect, probably shouldn't have. It's kind of holding me back now. I'm stuck in it until April, which means if I wanted to study abroad this summer, I really can't. If i wanted to study abroad next semester I really can't. But who would want to study abroad in the Fall. That's the best semester!
That's why I was thinking next spring. It'd only be 3 months left in my apartment, I could just pay that off and call it a day.
Blech, so many options. Sooo many things I could do. I wanted to take summer school this year too, but thinking about it, I really shouldn't. But then maybe I should, because I need to get my core curric. out of the way ASAP.
Man, this is all just blabbing. I've gotta get back to work. I've gotta stop thinking so much. It's kinda what happens when I go through rejection. I don't take rejection lightly. And I start reevaluating my life, in ways that are completely irrelevant to my rejection.
I don't usually have to try hard to get the things I want, so when I get rejected...I don't handle it very well...at all.

I knew I wouldn't update this thing that often.

I want an iphone.
That's tied with a macbook pro for number 1 thing I would like to buy.
Once I pay my rent, I'm investing.
I've wanted one for as long as I can remember.
I'm getting one.